What games are you playing? Why was the heartache you caused during our time together not enough? Why do you feel the need to try to keep worming your way into my space, getting any little peak of my life that you can manage despite my wishes of a future void of you?
The pain caused has turned to disdain. Your claws are no longer latched into me. Is that why you are looking for any way you can to send me little reminders of yourself, teetering between good and bad?
One day you send messages of tender memories shared between us, hoping the love we share for my child is enough to garner a response. When that reaction never arrives you switch up and make it known that you are still with the woman that hit the final nail into the coffin of our relationship.
What is the end goal here? To keep my mind on you even if the thoughts are all negative? Are you looking for jealousy? Or is it just enough for you to receive any type of attention? You can't possibly believe that I would be stupid enough to still pine for you after all of the lies, abuse, and infidelity? Was it such a hit to your ego that I finally picked myself over you?
As I erase memories of us, you keep trying to add new ones, ones that are nothing but a thorn in the side. I know by your own admission and those of your family and friends that losing me was your worst mistake but even that coming from you is unbelievable. I once truly thought the love from you was pure but now I see it for what it was – ego and pride and longing for something that you can't obtain on your own. Momentarily you could pretend to be something you never could be because your wife embodied everything you're missing: empathy, confidence, understanding. In your attempts to consume those things from me so you could call them your own, you lost the very thing you coveted. Feigned sweetness won't bring them back to you nor will further cruelty keep healing wounds open.
So... what are you doing?