5/28/2022 🦄
It's amazing how much we have all been through in life as individuals. Everyone has been through their own silent anguishes, their own silent wars, their own personal life lessons. It's also amazing how we can hold it all in & never speak up about them because we think others wouldn't understand. I think I'm past that now. I truly think I'm past that now. It's tiring to suppress my sorrow. It's tiring to uplift others around me & constantly feel short because I don't feel uplifted back. It's tiring...
So I'm journaling.
I'm journaling because I need to move on & heal. Maybe I'll heal faster because I'll finally put those words on a page & then SWOOSH! Healed! Done!
It's a quietly simple process but it will do wonders because I have never been comfortable with social media. Every time I have ever posted anything publicly, whether Facebook or the writing platform Medium, I've had to deal with “friends” or “followers”. That has always been an uncomfortable feeling. Always.
Truth is, in real life I don't have many friends. Also, the word “followers” makes me feel like some false leader who is on a pulpit preaching to my apostles. THAT is definitely an uncomfortable feeling! Leave that responsibility to Jesus or Buddha. Pure & simple, I'm just here to journal. Purifying my thoughts. Releasing them into the ethers so I can move on. Move on from all the pain I've had to carry all these years. Move on from all the heavy baggage. Move on from feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. Move on to feel lighter & more carefree & less dense.
Like a mythical & magical unicorn.
I'm finally ready to be free…
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