a weariness
I am damaged by my own rough motion. But I keep doing it. This body of death (…).
l am wounded by darkness too easily. Darkness that pours out from the mouths of my family. But I will not run away. I want this boat – this family – to be rebuilt in preparation for the impending disasters of tomorrow. Strengthen the ties that bind (…) all the more.
I find darkness within too easily. I hate myself, I hate this body of death. Who will deliver me from it? I cannot say I have yet found my deliverance. May His Kingdom Come for my deliverance.
I want some lube for my darkness, my masturbation.
It is nearly impossible to masturbate to nothing in mind. But I have done it before. I hope to do it again, so that there is also light in my darkness.
I have left (…) so I can add the references in the future.
This afternoon, I am too tired.
God have mercy. Otherwise, may He remember me as I burn in Hades.