Cycle vs. Born Again
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This drink was pretty healthy, and the grapefruit flavour was forward and not in the background. The sweetness was just right. Maybe a bit too healthy haha.
“You don’t need to die to be born again” (Strange Love et. al. 2022).
There is a idea where rebirth only occurs after death. Or maybe at the moment of death? I don’t know. That idea belongs to the cyclical perspective on life.
There is another idea where rebirth can occur before death.
3 “In truth I tell you,” exclaimed Jesus, “unless a person is reborn, they cannot see the kingdom of God.” (OEB et. al. 2022)
I have no comments on this. Just putting it out there.
Meanwhile, I am waiting for Sunday – waiting for Death, practicing death (…)– to kill my sexual desire. I won’t use anything. I will draw a black, womanly figure and masturbate to it. And I won’t confess it on here. What is done on Sunday stays in Sunday … maybe. After all, what is done in death stays in death, no one sees past the Iron Curtin (Britannica et. al. 2022) of Death. If the burden becomes too great … I will come back to the spill the beans.
I am white-knuckling my “recovery” from addictive masturbation. I clasp my hands in prayer on my bed, as I get angry or cry out (or both) to The Silent One, The Nameless One, for bloody help. “Why aren’t you picking up, damnit?” All I get is silence. I guess I have to cling to The Bible, but it ain’t enough at times, you know.
(…) is there for sources I cannot remember. I am tired of using Google Search to find them, TBH. Maybe I will add them in the future.
Go ahead, criticize my imperfections. I can imagine many voices already. And don’t need anymore from the readers. I am sorry, it’s just that if I am going to die tonight I don’t need niggling comments in the back of my head. All I want is to die in the arms of my loved ones, and have their tears poured out over me.