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reducing overthink to curb the critical voice

As someone who overthinks, it is easy to let that critical voice overturn all my plans, saying it’s not good enough, and call my bluff when my morale falls through the ceiling.

It is easy for me to be immobilized by the hundreds of suggestions that pour in whenever I make a mistake. Suggestions that point me in all kinds of directions. Before I even lift a finger, I am mentally exhausted and paralysed.

It is easy for me to let the seeds of these toxic thoughts grow into veritable weeds that choke me of my living and happiness, reducing it down to existence and dreariness. Even basic actions like push-ups or (physical) weeding (in the garden) can be made unnecessarily harder by a flood of voices that want to tear me down.

These are the moments that I learn I must stick to my guns. Stick to the plan. Don’t question. Don’t think it through. Do the thinking through some other time. There is a time for everything.

Reflection and reassessment time is 07.00 pm for me. That’s when I can turn a critical eye to the plan. And make AT MOST one modification, if none at all.

It starts with grace.

I am no teacher. No guide either. I am just sharing where I am as I am given day after day.