... something rather than nothing ...
… something is more important than nothing …
… that is why i don’t want to be a atheist … i can’t deal with the nihilism …
… yeah, i agree with you Karl Marx, this is my opiate (Karl Marx et. al. +1843) … i am one of the masses …
… but my life is short, so hey, spiritual drugs it is …
…spiritual drugs hurt me less than physical drugs … sometimes XD …
… but neither do i want to be a “Christian” as i have known for the last twenty-six plus years …
… i came to a conclusion … hold on … ad break!
… i was reading “Sweet Guy” (Sweet Guy et. al. 2022) this morning, a Korean comic, and I was in total crisis for breaking my rules … to not look at erotica, only listen to it, while staring at my waifu … i was trying to preach to myself in the shower, to make myself feel better … it’s like confessing to your alter-ego or something like that … i will start with what i loved … i loved that a virgin got the embrace and desired by many women … making him feel loved and needed … i hated the old man who was obviously using his hierarchy to have sex with younger women … without a thought about their futures … WHO WILL TAKE CARE OF THEM WHEN THEY ARE OLDER! …
… ad break is over … for now …
… i came to a conclusion – no a hunch – i am too dumb to make conclusions – that i didn’t want to be a nobody, body, or somebody … i wanted to be a heart … this is how it works in my silly head … heart = spirit + body …
… i am sure what i am writing is not new … i can feel the anxiety already … so there, i am the most unoriginal writer that has ever existed …
… i steal words and don’t credit them …
… i will try to quote, but no guarantees …
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… i am just thinking that … i am the problem, it’s me (Taylor Swift et. al. +2022) … lol it’s because i am listening to this song constantly …
… i have a playlist in Youtube Music (not sharing it hear, i want me privacy) that is called “thebowoflight” … it was named “aozyoke” before … it was named “aezyoke” before … that’s because in music we hear the burdens of the world … to hear songs from every genre is to build a yoke of the world … a yoke that Jesus bore … that we bear to, as humans (Henri Nouwen et. al. +1995) …
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… i may be a Christian humanist … or a humanist … it doesn’t matter lol …
… i am neither an animal or a god …
… i am a man … i am a third Adam (Moses et. al. -600)…
… writing is my spiritual dope … i am cooking this self-brew of that opiate Karl Marx talks about …
… of course, i am always open to a better recipe! … i am learning from The Spirit … i have no need for anyone to teach me … but i can if i WANT to …
… i was challenged to rethink what i actually need vs. what i want last night upon watching an episode of The English (Emily Blunt et. al. +2022) … it’s not the first time … NF has said something similar (…) …
DAMNIT! MY DAD JUST ASKED ME TO BRING OUT THE BBQ WE ARE THROWING INTO THE LANDFILL! I AM SUCH A MOTHER EARTH DESECRATER!
… it’s me, i am the problem … it’s me … hold on … i am A problem …
… lol if anyone wanted me to preach for them … i will send them to this blog … and they will go running like me like i am Hades himself! HAHHAHAHAHAHA!