Antimatter Dealer raps 01 02
Instrumentals:
01: William Basinski – Cascade
02: Cheap Windows – Temporary Absolutes
Lyrics:
Antimatter Dealer 01
Check Check from the Wood Shop
World's collapsing, mind's collapsing, screws through your brain folds
Obsequious, intelligent, a massacre, and then a comedy video
I see a dad carrying his little son: brain carved in Russian troll pretending to be Kropotkin
For all my friends, the text I see generated by 1s and 0s to my eyeballs
Transit some more, go for a walk?
I don't even know anymore
Talk to homeless people who found dead bodies in the canyons and the abandoned buildings.
Carry a flashlight for walking at night
Everybody distracted by the 6 inch screen devices. I'll jump start your car, fix your phone, it doesn't matter.
Sweat pouring on the Emo survivalist fit?
Go to a party, meet a guy who's exactly like me but from Oklahoma.
Nobody reading my writing, gotta start a rap career. Lubricate the whole creativity.
Alrighty, anti-matter dealer rap 02.
I wrote some verses in this journal
Get the Zyn in, that's important.
I'm like Picasso or Van Gogh on this Bluetooth earphone mic
I would say that I'm an abstract expressionist, but that was funded by an intelligence agency
I would say I'm Salvador Dali, but he was a low-key fascist twerp
This is 6 a.m. in the forest
I ain't an early bird
I only see and hear them after my bullshit late nights
I was in the music scene pulling late nights
Rolling up to Roberto's for rolled tacos with my shifty friends after 3 a.m.
Then I worked an incomprehensible gig economy job
Saw half a million Bing searches
There was one looking for 1 a.m. weed delivery in Carlsbad
That was a little bit funny
I was attending a Baths show in Salona Beach
Anxious sitting in a covert spot
Controlling my benign tremors, sipping hard cider, making 30 bucks from my shitty Moto E phone.
I loved his electronic tunes so much from the Tumblr days that I asked for a hug, no selfie
Bought a white shirt that I wore on many hikes
Hot and humid days at San Diego now has
The Baja hurricanes drop rain and lightning on us in months 8 and 9
So expensive, actually a neo-feudalist dystopia
Rich boomers, their trust fund kids, haven't seen the city like me
The Antimatter Dealer
Debut album drops in 2025.
Director's note
I tried posting these spoken word videos on social media. Had some feedback they were disturbing, the flow was subpar, and some kinder words. Thanks to the friends encouraging me to record the rap album or make outsider music again. You know who you are. A new LP will take some time, but I plan to bring it to fruition. Take care, go for a hike soon, join Signal.
-Ian (redacted)