Holy fucking shit.
This is too good not to share and fuck, I am so proud of myself so I’m going to brag for a fucking minute.
I fucking wore my man out in the best of ways.
Let me rewind just a little bit.
I’ve mentioned about how sheltered and traumatic my childhood was, which lead to me being a very naive adult. Being raised in a church meant that sex was taboo. Growing up, no one talked about sex and even when I was of age, I never watched porn. All of that was sin and we church girls were better than that. (Except we weren’t because church girls are the wildest.)
I’m a very sexual, open person but when it comes to porn, I don’t know anything.
In my previous posts, I’ve shared how porn has actually opened some really fun doors for us a couple lately. I spent so many years in fear, thinking I wasn’t good enough because I didn’t look like these perfect porn ladies. It was an unfair expectation that I had only placed on myself.
Recently, I asked my husband how I could start to watch porn and maybe discover what I might like. In our very red state, all of the popular sites are blocked. My husband put a VPN on my phone and walked me through pornhub. At first, it was pretty overwhelming. There was a category for everything and unfortunately, I see everything. I see faces, I see if a background item doesn’t match or if something doesn’t make sense in the scene playing in front of me. I eventually found a way to just watch and not stress about needless details.
No one watches porn for the stories anyways.
So my husband sat with me tonight and we watched me watch porn.
It sounds weird and at first, I was overwhelmed. There was too much and I realized I’m super picky when it comes to what I find attractive. Most of the men are pretty disgusting and even though I’m heavily tattooed myself, I don’t like tattoos in porn. It’s so weird for me to sit and see what I might like, right next to my husband.
On top of this, I was diagnosed with ADHD, after years of feeling like something was “wrong”. With the diagnosis came a level of anger because it felt like another thing “wrong” with me. The Dr told me that once I got medication, my life was going to be a whole lot better. I waited two weeks for my medication appointment and finally, it was time to pick it up.
But I couldn’t.
I was trapped in this hell hole of endless missing paperwork. Insurance wouldn’t cover it because I wasn’t pre authorized but no one could get that done. So my husband just said to pay out of pocket, just so I would have the medicine.
They put me on adderall and I honestly didn’t know what to expect. I took my first dose tonight and within an hour or so, my brain was so quiet.
It was so fucking nice..
Along with getting medicine for ADHD, I was also four days late for my cycle. I had my tubes tied 8 years ago so I wasn’t worried about pregnancy but I’m usually never late. On top of that, the day prior to my cycle starting, I’m a complete raging cunt. We’ve narrowed this down to PMDD, and usually I keep an eye on the days so I can see it coming. We know not to talk about serious things right before my cycle.
With my oldest daughter in town and life just lifing, I missed the warning signs.
We got into a fight and it was serious.
We decided to stop holding back and be completely honest and see each others demons in full. It takes me A LOT to trust anyone and my husband is literally the only person I trust completely. Even with that, I’ve never truly shared how scary my mind can be because I’m really terrible to myself. I latch onto negativity and internalize it all. In turn, this creates a dangerous area of self hatred for myself that’s hard to get out of. I spiral quick and it’s a nasty place for me to be.
Tonight, I decided to let him in on it compeltley.
So we dug deep and had some really, really difficult conversations. It was hard and it felt like we were making a mistake but with us, communication has always been our best asset. (Well, aside from a fucking killer sex life.)
Life came together today (after a really disastrous day before) and I got my medicine, we had really good conversations and I got my period.
Finally, we could see the sunlight.
Along with these changes in the right direction, it lead us to a breakthrough of how we work best together. I super love being submissive and thrive when my husband is doing what he does best, being Dominant as fuck.
At the end of our conversation, and with a quieted mind, my libido came back 85 times stronger than before. All the sudden, I could breathe after a super stressful day and realized we hadn’t fucked in two days.
Two days is two too many.
I don’t like skipping days and neither does he.
I told him when the kids went to bed, I wanted to ravage him. He set me up with porn hub and we just laid in the bed watching me explore porn for the first time. It took me a little bit but once I found a few things I liked, o grabbed his dick and started to rub him while we watched porn videos that I picked, while I told him what I liked about what I was watching.
It was really, really fucking hot.
Feeling his body react to the sounds and videos, on top of my words and moans drove me over the edge.
I wanted him now.
I absolutely looooove to edge him.
Not only does it prolong his orgasm but it gives me more cum to swallow.
And I fucking love his cum.
I literally can’t get enough.
So after laying together in bed watching videos of people fucking, I switched to what I know he likes. I picked a girl I know he follows and watched those videos, know it would drive him absolutely wild. I told him he wasn’t allowed to cum yet. I wanted to test how long I could get him to last, while also moaning about the things we were watching.
Eventually, I could feel he wasn’t going to last much longer.
So I decided to pick another video and make him last through one more, while asking him to please keep his eyes open and describing how fucking hot it was.
After that one, I couldn’t wait anymore. I drove myself crazy and I needed my mouth on his cock like yesterday.
I had two days to make up for.
I started sucking his straining dick and decided to make it last even longer. Every time he got closer, I stopped. I would moan, I would wink, I would rub my tongue along places I knew he loved. When he got closer, I stopped.
Then this mother fucker decided to call me out. He said he could last and if I wanted help, just let him know. He was along for the ride.
What the fuck!?
He just challenged me, while I had his very hard dick in my mouth.
Fucking game on.
I pulled out all the stops and eventually he gave in. I don’t know how much time passed but I was excited. I knew it was going to be so fucking good and I wasn’t wasting any.
I made sure he could see as he came in my mouth, down my hands, all over himself, etc. I made sure to grab his hand and then lick it off his fingers. I literally licked everywhere because that was mine.
And it was worth it.
As usual, he tasted fucking amazing. His body was shaking, he was loud as fuck and that got me even more turned on.
After I was done chasing all his cum, I gently started sucking him again. I didn’t give him a break.
I wanted more and I was determined to get it.
I told him he didn’t have to cum but I was just going to have fun. He started drifting in and out and when he came back, he felt his cum building.
It was fucking hot.
I knew exactly what to do but again, I wanted to drag it out. Unfortunately, I got too excited and didn’t want to wait. I was going to fucking town. When I knew he was close, I stopped and looked up and him and asked him if he would please choke me with his cum. He looked at me with the hottest fucking look and told me he was already going to.
How the fuck did i get so lucky?!
Right when he was about to cum, he pushed my head down enough so I could barely breathe but could also move up and down slightly. I made sure my to tongue was working over time and when he went to finish, he shoved my head down as far as he could.
We’ve been working on me taking his deep while he cums, so it can just spill down my throat, but it’s really hard to do. Usually, when I start to
gag/choke, he’ll let go and I come up
for air.
This time he shoved my head down and kept it there. Even when I started to really choke, he don’t stop and I fucking loved it.
I had tears streaming down and a throat full of cum and a mouth of his cock.
Happy Birthday to me!
It was fucking awesome and when I came up for air, I thanked him for choking me with his cum and how much I enjoyed it. Then I sucked him a little longer to make sure to milk him for everything.
After his second orgasm, I wanted to go again. He was clearly done but man, those two orgasms and how good he tasted, left me even more fucking crazy for him. So I told him when we wake up, I want to go again.
I’ll literally dream about it tonight until we can do it again.
I fucking love pleasing him and I love swallowing every god damn drop.
I’ll never waste any, ever.
So with the new found enjoyment of porn, having a quieter mind with adderall and my hormones balanced – I’m ready to fuck him senseless, as often as possible.
When we were done, we came upstairs and realized it was 3am.
Oops!
Good thing we’ll both be sleeping so fucking good tonight. I’ll have a belly full of him and he’ll be exhausted but ready to go again in the morning.
Fucking bring it.
I’m ready for the next challenge😘
xoxo,
T’s personal cumslut
Ps. I won! I got round 3 in before we fell asleep 🏆