Insight into mental illness. Bipolar Schitzo effective

Equality

(Luxury or Illusion)

I've come to a standpoint in my current position in both political and economical status in the Country of the free. Where freedom of speech and democracy where born. The land where dreams can come true. I now see how rules and regulations are not only instilled in our minds but put in place to cause us to believe such things are available to all. In reality it's mostly red tape to detour and prolong. Which is necessary step to establish the quality of living for said immigrating population arriving in there attempts to establish the American dream. Unfortunately that is not available to all. There are those who do not have the luxury of said opportunities. For few lack drive, there are few who have the drive and accomplish thier goals. Yet there are those that have been labeled outcast or disowned by their own kin. Some by their own means. Others by neglect by their unfortunate circumstances. Some can't comprehend, due to never learning to acknowledge that they are capable of doing so. Then there are those who hardly exist for they have no part of their past to identify with. No family to claim them. No country that can identify them. What good is the of the land of the free? When all is restricted. How can you be heard? When your worst fear is being spotted and becoming ostracized from a place you call home. Yet are programed to stay out of sight due to the lack of registration. Eventually those dreams will start to seem as dream in another life. Eventually it will become a taunt. As if eating in front of a starving man or dieing of thirst on a small island while watching ships sail by. Inevitably you will give it your last hoorah, if you will. Your last true attempt. I believe if you would fully surrender yourself to what ever you want to accomplish. It's not if you accomplish said goal. It's only a matter of time until you do. Whether it's a football scholarship, business proposal, or nutrition plan. It can and will become a reality. An object will always remain on said course or trajectory unless an external force is introduced as resistance to veer it of track. That is a undeniable truth. That goes for goals as well. Whether it's a goal towards bettering your position, quality of living, or simply to get identification, ect. That is all in good. Although, what if the force of resistance comes from within. As if it were an unbalanced proton within a nucleus which is enough to cause a slight wobble that would cause you to veer off track? A singularity that will cause you to constantly navigate in order to remain on course. What then. Well that is the mindset I have now. I have to navigate threw my past in order to better my future. Hope all goes well. No matter how grim it might seem. There is 2 things that will most certainly happen. No matter how hard or impossible the path set in front of you may seem. Whether it's a curvy road, a maze or a labyrinth. You can rest assured one of two things will happen. #1 You will either Triump emerging victorious on the other side. Or, #2 You simply do not emerge at all, to which your struggle will be over and you will lay at rest. So long as you know you didn't give up and gave it your all with whatever tools you had at your disposal. Whether it's academics , support, or assistance. In that matter perception. You can rest assure things will inevitably become easier. One way or another. In all honesty, there are good ideals of this country are obscured. Allot of the ways of the world are ran by darkness disguised as light. For example, the blind Lady of justice. It's a very flawed system. I've heard of true factual stories where law enforcement has had assistance by verified psychics to solve cold cases that occurred decades ago. How come can't compose  a  jury of the same psychics to prevent wrongful accusation? Thus becoming the insightful lady of justice. Sounds foolish? I think not. Along with the D***head who decided to run the world on petroleum products. That is what keeps tyrants in power. Without the need of armies nor war. Justified or should I say rationalized with bureaucracy. For the events that had taken place to which put tyrants in power over the oil industry which were paved with blood of the innocent and guilty alike. To which it's quitly swept under the rug before diplomatic proceedings even took place. That seems to me to be the true definition of prime evil. Death for oil. It's a wonder no one has put a stop to it now that are huge advancements in technology. That won't be allowed. Does the Bin laden's and the Bush’s ring a bell? If I'm not mistaken, they had a long history of making profit together. Like for example oil tycoons, wealthy middle eastern sheiks, legacy in presidency, Iraq. It's obvious. In the manner it was brought to the public eye was not necessary. Very unfortunate and wrong in so many ways. Atrocities as those are simply the product of people doing things in the name of profit and not progress. Events as those would never take place should we all strive for the same goal. This world is ran by darkness disguised as light. I truly believe the truth will always come to light no matter how long it takes. No matter how few discover. It's inevitable. In the end all we want is to be is equals and become the masters of their own environment. That is what I currently strive for and I pray to God to give me the strength to Triumph over any obstacle the devil may throw my way. Both familiar and strange face alike. In order to remain vigilant on the road to righteousness in the strive of progress for all. Both stranger and loved ones alike. This a written look into my life, psyche, mind, and soul.

By: CBC 🧀

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