Friday, September 11 9:14 a.m.
(Insight Into Mental Illness After Seeking
Help)
(Volatile)
Today was an emotional disaster. By far one of the most volatile this month, by far! In a half glass half full perspective, it's not the worst this year. I'm hoping that was the peak of my illness's way of lashing out. So I choose to believe the worst is past me. Or so I thought. Just relived a memory in which I treated in the same manor so I believe it's a proper way to balance out my attempt at mental equilibrium. I choose to believe said memory was not real or non existent and that is why I am at this cross road today. So I might as well use the tactic of demise against its negative attempt at me by applying the same strategy in a positive manor. A mental counter move if you will. So I choose to believe the worst episode is behind me. Thus exploiting a weakness as a new found strength. I've realized I can use same tactic to apply the opposite reaction. If you believe one to be true, then you must expect other to be as well. Example gravity, weight lessnes. The natural order of things against things artificial on nature. Newton's law. For every action there will always be a equal reaction. If you feel you've experienced kl true anguish then you are capable of finding true happiness because only through anguish comes clarity yet you will never know the feeling of victory because you will always finish second. Any fine tuned organism has to be perfectly balanced. Equilibrium is key. My belief system consists of this. God's law known as physics. For every action there will always be an equal reaction. Undeniable fact. As well as mathematical principal. A negative multiplied by a negative will always be a negative as well as a positive multiplied by a positive will always come out to be a positive. So long as law's of physics bound to this earth apply. Example. Newton's law, an object will remain on its trajectory unless an external force is introduced in the form of resistance to which can be measured in the form of newton's. That can be applied to a focus or mindset, or goal. So long as we remain focused and do not allow distraction. Therefore you will become your obstacle. As the saying goes, you will become your own worst enemy.
By: CBC (🧀)