Freelance software developer from Portland Oregon.

Not Writing Today

I really wanted to write something today, but I don’t think it’s going to happen. I’ve been feeling pretty anxious, which only got worse when I got a cold earlier this week. At this point, I can barely form any coherent thoughts. That’s why I’m not going to write anything.

Speaking about the anxiety thing — am I weird, or is everyone anxious most of the time, and they just don’t talk about it? The way things have been, and continue to be, it’s hard for me to imagine not having an underlying current of anxiety most of the time. Is everyone afraid they’re going to lose their jobs or have something go wrong at any moment? Maybe that says more about me than anything else. Maybe Swedish people?

I’ve wondered a lot about how living in a place that has a real social safety net affects the mental health of the people who live there. I’m sure it does. We talk a lot about how if we taxed rich people more in order to pay for doing that in the United States how it could disincentive investors.

That doesn’t make sense to me though. How many of us might try something they otherwise wouldn’t if the cost of failure wasn’t so high? It’s hard for a normal person to invest their personal capital in doing anything but continuing to do what they need to get by, that has to have an effect. Even if I’m totally wrong, I’d be okay with the risk of rich people taking fewer chances if it meant everyone else didn’t have to walk around feeling like this is the day everything might fall apart.

So yeah, that’s why I’m not writing anything today. Hopefully soon when I’m feeling a bit better.

#writing #anxiety