Genetic/Narcissistic Rage

I prefer the softness of a hug,

but sometimes the world confuses me.

An embrace can feel like chains,

arms meant to hold me close

become arms that hold me down.

I long for warmth,

yet my body flinches at restraint—

a hug, a trap,

so close I cannot tell

if it’s love or capture.

Would you like me to shape it into a shorter, sharper version, almost like a punchy spoken-word piece?