some of my thoughts and notes

Alone

Two days ago, my wife left with our son to visit her family for two weeks. Yesterday, one of our two housemates left for a vacation in Japan. Now, until last Monday I used to think that all I really want is some time alone, like back in the days when I first moved to Norway and I came home from work and I was all on my own.

These days, when I come home from work, I need to play with our son and bring him to sleep, and afterwards I need to keep an ear on him and if he wakes up it's my job to go to him so that my wife has time for herself. This means that I practically don't have any time during which I can fully focus.

However, now, after they left, I almost immediately got sick, and decided to work from home. After two days of home-office, I realize how alone I actually am without anyone around. It is nice in some ways, but it is also strange.

It made me realize, very quickly, how thankful I am for the few people in my life whose presence I truly enjoy and value.