some of my thoughts and notes

Concern

I have only one concern:

I don't want to spend my time overthinking, so I don't.
This might be a mistake because I'm missing out on second-order effects. In my own life, this is hard enough. But I think I'm still not walking into a trap.

Concerning your life, I'm not sure whether I'm having the right influence, precisely because I'm not willing and maybe not even able to consider second- and third-order effects on your side. I'm only trying to do what's right in each and every moment, and I can only do that from the perspective of my own intuition which is also clouded by my desires and aversions.

For you, on your path, in the worst scenario, I could just be a distraction, essentially a road-block on your path that just doesn't look like one. I still remember this pile of gravel in our way that you decided to just have fun with.

If that's the case, it's up to you to recognize that and draw the adequate consequence. You are free to take a step back and take time to get more clarity. Maybe you'll reach the point when the pile of gravel has taught you the lesson it was supposed to teach you, and it's time to move on.

I only know that I can't figure this out for you. As long as you don't ask for silence and distance, you won't get this from me. Because I am and maybe always will feel drawn to you.

That's all I'm concerned about. Don't allow me to mess up your path.