Intense Headache
Last night I had a super intense headache.
I don't know exactly what the reason was but essentially I felt like I ended up in a dead end, both physically and mentally. I realized that I can't go further in this direction, that I had forgotten the direction I wanted to go.
Despite the terror of the headache I found it interesting to observe it and its origin. First I thought I might have some inflammation in my brain (and I still think it's possible that this was partially the cause), then I thought that maybe the headache was coming from my teeth that are somehow pushing against each other (and I still think it's possible that this was partially the cause), but finally I realized that after two days of sitting at a desk my neck was pretty tense.
And when I massaged my neck, it hurt, but it also helped release the tension.
Essentially, this all runs back to the states of consciousness and to my experiences of the previous days.
The best thing about the whole experience was waking up after an extra long session of finally sleeping a bit, almost without headache.
It made me realize how awesome it is to not experience pain.
And slowly I feel myself getting back on track.