Elias

I don't know why I was making myself the intense headache that lasted almost throughout the entire last night. What seems sure to me is that I caused it by drinking too little water and tensing my neck muscles during the day.

Another thing that's pretty sure is that under the influence of such intense pain my thoughts also tend to become painful.

I imagined that the headache might be caused by a viral infection in my brain.

I imagined how maybe not only happiness can spread between people but also unhappiness.

The rest of my thoughts is mostly forgotten and probably it is better this way. I don't know if there really is a necessity of thinking painful thoughts and especially if there's a necessity of sharing them.

Retrospectively, I could find two reasons why this experience had been necessary. The first was that it led me to the decision to stop smoking at least for a while and the second was that it helped my empathy with a friend one day later who had a headache and was plagued with painful thoughts. I called her and managed to at least help her find some joy even in pain.