some of my thoughts and notes

Journal Prompt

How are you feeling about this last month of the year?

It's shit cold. I don't feel really well when temperatures are below zero, I'm not really prepared for this. I also wish we would have finished work a bit earlier so we wouldn't have to race as much into the end of December as we do now. But I'll take my break in January, which is actually better than December.

What do you want to accomplish in December?

I want to finish my work for the year, so I can really drop it until May.

How do you wish to be seen by those closest to you?

As a joyful, compassionate being, who will always be able to respond to them when they need me to.

Have you been embracing your imperfection lately?

Embracing might be a bit too much right now, but at least I've been able to distance myself from my imperfection and see it more clearly. Working on it.

I had a funny dreamy thought this morning just before waking up:

I thought: β€œI get that if I fall (forwards) I will be held. But what if I fall backwards? What happens then? Is there someone to catch me?”

I'll reply to myself with Sadhguru's words:
β€œIt is important to protect the body, but you cannot be hurt.”