Emrys

Today I had to confront the injustice that happened to me. I had to revisit what happened to get a better understanding.

Immediately, I felt the room sinking beneath me. My arms were weakening, followed by my legs. My chest began getting tight, like a boa constrictor squeezing its prey. Then followed the tsunami of tears. Shortly after, the demon started to taunt me. Telling me I could have done more to protect my brother. I shouldn’t have put my partner in that situation.

The demon did not stop there, oh no… if that was not enough, it made me watch it. All over again, again and again. I’m left trembling. I want to speak, but have no tongue. It’s like a belt wrapped around my neck, getting tighter. All of which is controlled by the demon.

This made me realise this demon feeds on my pain. My anguish. It knows if it tortures me, I’ll react. It gets the reaction it wants. I’m powerless. I realise what is happening to me, but each limb degrades, one by one, followed by my chest and finally my tongue.

Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe it won’t. I am just glad I learned how my demon works today.