I Used To Be

I used to be in love
I used to be happy
I used to be content with my life
I had found pleasure in small things
I had purpose
I had meaning
I used to know who I was
I used to know what I wanted for my future
I used to love myself
I used to love who I was to the people in my life
Now I feel nothing but pain
I feel nothing but sadness
I feel, but I don't like What I am feeling right now
It's too much
There used to be balance in my life
What if I used to be? Then what...