About the author: currently transcending the astral plane

Offline Mode

What's on my mind right now is how I'd like to do more things offline. I really love my computer and I love technology. I love writing and feeling the flow of my fingertips as I type this out and seeing it fill up the screen. This isn't a new “problem” but it's just something I notice. My introvert side is fully formed. I can spend the day writing here and putting in the work. That's what makes me happy. It may take a minute for me to get into that flow state but once I'm writing and feeling it—there's nothing like it. 😊

The part in my mind I'm struggling with a bit is just fleshing out the other parts of me—the extroxerted parts. Granted, it is a bit more difficult these days due to the current state of affairs in the World. I don't want to use that as an excuse though. It's not just about being more social and stuff like that (although that is certainly part of it). It's really just about having a (for lack of a better word), more balance of a lifestyle.

They say it's about finding a work-life balance. The funny thing is I'm not really “working” right now. Not in the traditional sense right now. I feel a lot better though after pulling the trigger and quitting my job. It's not perfect (nothing is), but I would say I feel a bit lighter—especially when I let my worries subside and I focus on my work, which is writing.

They also say to do what you love. One of my loves or passions is definitely writing. I feel I am a much better writer than I am speaker. But I do find communication on a whole to be fascinating. I ought to study linguistics or something.

I think what I'm searching or longing for is just other stuff to do with my time. I think I'm thinking too small and too tunnel visioned. I just need other stuff to do that doesn't involve me and my computer. I love my little hobbit hole too much that it's tough to break away from that. I know there are other things I can be doing though. It's just finding what works best for me.

One simple solution would to just be hanging out with friends. It gets me out of my head and gets me thinking in new and creative ways.

Let me brainstorm some ideas:

Perhaps it just takes a bit of experimentation here—a bit of trial and error. I have written about this before, but would like a clearer picture. Perhaps I am over-thinking it a bit too instead of just relaxing with the idea. I just want to be more conscious with my actions and what I do rather than just doing things by default.

I think it's just about finding my natural rythym and what speaks to me. And I do think I am over-thinking a bit. I just want my choices to be interesting and not boring (although “boring” chores are necessary sometimes).

I did come across this

list that is good starting point. On that list (and on mine), the one that appeals to me right now is probably reading.

I feel simple is good here too. You need not overcomplicate things. A simple phone call can do wonders. 😊 I would like to come back to this with a fresh perspective. Before I go, this is why I think (although it's hard right now), having something as an outdoor activity is so important. Especially when it involves others because it gets you out of your head and into the World.

Something like video is a good example of this for me. It would be fun to create videos because I would be afk and still creative. When I am done shooting I can always come back to the computer. Just writing this, I am realizing how addicted to the computer I can be. The thing is no one is forcing me to use the computer. I have to remind myself that I am in charge of my own body and mind.