It's been a while since I wanted to kill myself.
And I'm not sure I totally do, yet.
But I am extremely frustrated with my current life circumstances.
Living in my home country is extremely fucking expensive.
I hate working in an office. I hate working for others – full stop.
I have constant headaches.
My wife and I are barely having sex.
I'm getting fat from the shitty processed food in the supermarkets here.
Meat and veg is 2-3x more expensive than the country I was in before.
My friends overseas think I'm stupid for leaving – as it didn't make sense financially or to my quality of life.
I try to explain that I didn't intend to stay here, it was trying to be a holiday...
My family here think I'm stupid for wanting to leave “early”, less than 2 months in to a 9 month lease.