10/02/2019
Today has overall been good, the depression doesn't feel as strong today as it has been, but beware! That SOB always comes back with a vengeance.
The started off well because J not only made pancakes, but made them shaped like a cat and put on a strawberry face on it. Then at church, Pastor B gave me a DVD for my Vietnamese-speaking friend.
I'm feeling a little restless today, but I'm always feeling restless. But this is a good restless, and I hope that I can keep this going for the coming week.
I had an urge to write, but now I don't quite now. I guess that's the depression and SADD for you.
Oh, one thing, but this will be rather lengthy. Shoot, I have to pee, BRB.
Now I'm back.
It's sort-of-almost mid-February, and I think now I need to set my 2019 goals. I never got around to setting them for January, and I knew that having to go to the wedding was going to throw things off for me anyway. I haven't done my language learning, which has upset me greatly, as has been my laziness and how I've let myself slide.
But now I'm feeling tired and unfocused. I think I want to take some time.
But really quickly:
I want to reassess my Chinese goals. I don't know if I want to learn Chinese for business yet, because I don't know what kind of business I will be in 5 years from now, and it's such a huge commitment especially compared to the other things I want to do with Chinese.
Hmm, I really should go now .
But to touch on later:
I want to write flash fiction or short stories daily
I want to learn Persian and Chinese
Persian for diaries and stories and emails, speaking for small talk, reading books and blogs and newspaper, listening to TV and movies and podcasts and cooking shows
Chinese for everything
Yoga each morning
Positivity
Dancing
Change who I am in TN
Learn more about being a better writer
Acting
Do standup
Do crosstalk
Become a better marketer
Open my own business
read more about business
get things started so I can have my own profitable one-person business.