writing from the in-between of healing & hurting, softness & rage, silence & scream; this space is for the ghosts i carry, and the selves i’m still becoming.

#thisferalheart #poetry

015 | on submission

from an outside perspective
it is giving up control
someone held down
too weak, maybe,
to know what they want

from an outside perspective
it might be
disturbing
seeing someone
seemingly
lose all
their dignity
seeing someone
give up
on themselves
shamelessly, ferally, carnally

the outside perspective
sees welts on flushed skin
hears pleas
for more or mercy
watches games they think deranged

but
being held down
is being held open
being controlled
is being seen in my rawness
and still chosen

in yielding
i offer my mind,
my ache, my need,
i offer
so much more than skin
and i trust
to be rebuilt

where you see collapse
i feel becoming
where you expect ruin
i know rebirth

being held down
is being held open
being held fully