A few weeks ago, I felt passively suicidal in a way that I thought to myself “I don't want to off myself, but I just want to leave this horrible and chaotic world and never come back”.
Maybe I still feel this way somewhat. Just tired of being anxious about conforming to society's standards just to survive with a paycheck.
I just wish I'd stop feeling lost, but it's so hard. Nowadays I wish for a simple foundation for me to move forward.