I am pathetic on so many levels.
I can't do what I promise to do.
I always disappoint everyone.
My daydreams and my rejection sensitivity are what's putting me down. Because of them, I have done zero progress throughout my 20s. I fucking hate my inattentive ADHD so much.
I want to start, but it's too painful to do so. Am I unwilling to trust the process and accept the outcome? Unwilling to face failure and accountability?
I'm already a nobody at this point, so what do I have to lose? Yet I'm so scared to risk losing what I DON'T have.