I do feel like a hungry ghost right now. Too depressed and envious. Too deprived of my own insight and healing. Too scared of any criticism because I see them as deep personal attacks like I'm the villain. Maybe I am a villain after all...
It's not fair; why do I have to face pain and adversary just to heal? Do I HAVE to be yelled at my face about how much of a coward and a failure I am? How am I going to heal from this. Wouldn't it only bring me more trauma beyond my control?