Maybe I should just abandon my personal ambitions.. I'm too incompetent to work on them, and people will most likely won't ever appreciate them. I ultimately appeal to no one...
My dreams and ambitions were nothing but lies. All false projections of my ego. My life as I knew it was all a LIE.
Every goal I thought of was usually to serve my ego. My fantasies. I honestly never really cared about other people...
If I'm so egotistical, then I don't deserve any companionship.