As if....I signed up for this when we met 15 years ago.
As if....I signed up to be with someone who's mother would come to help meal prep for weeks on end and only prep for you and not consider meals for the week for me and your children.
As if...I signed up to be with someone who prefers to go on his own to the funeral of friends....are you single again and perhaps I missed the memo?
As if...I signed up to be with someone who punches and breaks our children's things when he becomes frustrated when they are clowning around at bedtime instead of going to sleep as scheduled on a school night.
As if...I signed up to be with someone who talks about me to his mother when I am in the next room...yes, I can hear you!
As if...I ever thought I would find myself in this situation as I approach half a century on this planet and have no idea what to do or how to move forward.
As if...I ever imagined myself feeling guilty for taking time to myself and just going away without my children or spouse.
As if...I ever imagined writing about how I feel alone, in a fleeting relationship, yet obligated to stick it out.
As if...I have options...do I have options?