How did I get here..?
Simply put, I’ve wanted to start writing blogs for my own good ever since my problem with Naver occurred, which still to this day hasn’t ever fixed. I am glad that I found an alternative, this.
I haven’t had a midterm exam just yet. I guess the whole stress about it and my new curriculum at the hagwon I work at all add up to the reason why I am typing this with furious thoughtfulness. I don’t know exactly what to write about so we’ll see how this goes along, if I get to finish it by today that is from my side.
I hate to say it, but I honestly think I despise people around my age who don’t challenge themselves to go beyond outside one’s comfort zone. You’re in college, congratulations. Is that it? Haha, you wish. Right now, where I am at the age of 21 is prime for all sorts of experiences that I can enrich and grow. Peeps on campus would say, “Hey, Jimin. You’re such a hard worker. Like, I wouldn’t be able to do it if I were in your shoes.” Well, get a grip, honey. Life is something you need to work hard and stress about to advance.
At the end of the day, everyone around me is my competitor (not to deliver the idea of the Korean mindset of competing with everyone around you), and I have to strive to achieve what is best for me—this I haven’t figured out yet. Then the question I get next is, “What’s the purpose of all this shitty work you put through with no clear goal?” I want to be safe with options that lay around my desk rather than panic about not having done anything prior.
Okay, now you know what kind of person I am. Trash-talker, judgy, and disapproving of others. But I’m not naming anyone, and this is just to say how I think generally of people in my spectrum of acquaintances.
Anyway, for those who I haven’t talked to about what I’m going to say, here it is. I’m flying back to my parents as soon as the semester ends, and will be staying there for however long I need to before my enlistment. It’ll be a while before I see HUFS people again after this year. I’m so ready to pack my four baggages and head towards the airport. It’s been genuinely very exhausting living in Korea, and I deserve some plentiful rest.