but then someone will read the text i wrote and ask me
“are you fine?”
“i'm concerned”
“how do you want to fix this? here, do this:”
none of this.
i could say
“no its alright, im just writing it out but i feel okay with it”
“yea idk what to do i guess i just need to go travelling and itll be fine but living here is just hell”
“i wrote it as a reflection of my thoughts in my mind, while not attaching to them, just being a non-judgemental awareness”
none of this.
“you're supressing your emotions” makes me angry.
am i supressing my emotions? yes or no?
none of this! cannot put into words! cannot decide! stop abusing words!