he was lying and relaxing, thinking about her, thinking about him, being around and okay with everything there was, there was nothing more to do, nothing more to hold on,
and he felt his heart beating calmly, the sound that frightened him once now gave him warm comfort, he felt some strange sensations in his back and in his right ear, and somehow knew: that was it,
that was me, in this world. i will be free from now and free forever, “apocalypse dreams” was playing in the background and there was no other way he would have wished to die.