im useless. i cant even grow little fucking peas. im too lazy to do anything. i say im a good coder but also i dont do anything there. one failure follows after another failure. i even suck at getting high. nobody will want to take me as a workaway traveller. im a bad boyfriend, im an emotional wreck, im hateful, cold, and she will leave me at some point. or if she doesnt, we'll be miserable together.
today i have no energy to do anything. okay well, i have, but i dont want to. i have to go outside to send a mail. just that. i dont want to go out just for that. but i want to go out to be in the garden. oh youre positive now? yay! lets go to the garden! everything is fine now! ahhh yes being cynical is better, in this position nobody can judge you because youre above everything else. :)