It's 4 days until Christmas, and it feels like I can breathe again. It was Church today, a place I've visited for most Sundays for the past year; it feels like my safe place. Everyone is so loving there. I'm greeted with my smiles, hugs and people remember my name. It's a place where I can truly let go and feel supported in the arms of God. I wasn't always a believer. In fact for what I mostly remember, I was super against anything that brought any hope. So much pain had happened to me that I just couldn't see why or how God could be possible, but I found my way back normally through my lowest points. I think it's funny that's where most of us find him. In our darkest moments, we cry out to him because we finally let go, and we are met with that small bit of hope. I think that's all it takes, is that little bit of hope sometimes. When we can be truly honest and say, “God, I've got this much hope, show me, I need you”. He will move mountains to show you just how much that little bit of hope means to him. I said this to him one evening in despair. I had been working on my business, and I was so close to giving up. I say this like it was 3 years ago... this was 2 weeks ago, and I was just about to give up, and then I opened my arms and heart wide, and I said “ God, I've got this much hope, show me, I need you”. The next day I went on my day as normal, but this time I decided to post a video of me creating my product and boom, I was met with 27 orders. 27 ORDERS!! Please understand that I hadn't made a sale in weeks, so 27 orders from that little bit of hope was mind-blowing. You see what he can do with just the smallest bit of hope; imagine what he could do with your full bag of hope. It's 4 days before Christmas, and I feel this hope within me getting bigger and bigger as I remember I've, you've, we've got the biggest supporter up there working his magic even when we can't see or understand. I once didn't believe in anything, and now I can't unsee all the beauty he has done for me. If you stayed to the end. Thank you, and just remember, God can do a lot even with just a small bit of hope. Most of all, he just wants your heart's honesty.
Thoughts.
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