a decent start to the day. i was up early enough to take my meds and get the birds done before going out. i had to go to the drs office and ask for a back to work note. so that being done i did a few errands and came home.
i think left overs for dinner. i still have some chores to do and energy is getting low. going out alone and driving always takes alot out of me.
its a nice day out but i have no desire to even go outside. some days i just want to die. some days i see my life as a dismal failure. i have tried so hard to succeed and thought i would end up with something alot better. makes me sad to think this is all i am worth. what is wrong with me that i always end up in the ditch. i always thought i was a good person . why is it some people always land on their feet and others fight for everything.
later: its clouded over now and its thundering. the rain will come. the pain will come and i will go to bed early. my cough has been with me all day. i drank some more juice hoping it would go away.
i miss my kids and grandkids so much. my heart hurts when i think of them. will they ever be back in my life? only time will tell....
i am going to close here for now....see you all tomorrow...