another day of cold and snow. another day of staying inside. heat is back on but will turn it of later . my right shoulder is killing me today. i am right handed so movement will be limited today. i have taken a pain pill but has not made much of a dent in it.
the aim today is to finish my art piece and do some dusting on the bookselves. see what happens. oh and make dinner. i got off easy yesterday on dinner as it was left over night so i made the fruit cake which turned out great. brent even took some for lunch. so dinner will be homemade pizza from scratch. will have to put the bread machine on at about 2.
tomorrow is shopping day so have to make out a list. only day i go out now to buy food. brent takes me as i cant drive yet...if ever again. i am finding i am ok with being home. as long as i have the supplies i need to work on various projects i am ok. with the development of online shopping it sure has changed how people live now.
when i was newly married to my ex we lived 2000 miles from family and friends. it was really hard on me. we had moved to an unknown part of the country and an unknown city. i was left alone to unpack the house and set things up. i had to learn to navigate the city on the bus as i didnt drive yet. i had no friends for years. so i took solace in my abilities to keep myself busy with my knitting and crocheting. i didnt make much at first as i didnt have alot of money. i could not get a job as it was the recession at the time. my ex was ever so happy i was home alone and away
from family. he would stay at work and drink after he was done and then drive home. it was expected i would have dinner ready. but i never knew when he would be home, and at that point in my life i was not a very good cook. i would be home alone for weeks and months on end. going out only twice a month to pay bills and buy food. he never liked me having cats but gave in when i said i would not give them up. he allowed me to have 2. one of which i had before we met. he drank alot and often. i dont think the cats liked him very much if at all.
i believe what animals tell me about people . animals will never lie about who a person is. my doves like me but keep me at a distance somewhat as i am not with them all the time. they put up with the constant checking of condition and food and water etc. i have turned out to be a very good bird breeder . as i am fairly certain that the birds would not breed if they did not feel safe or happy. so once a week i have to collect up all the unwanted eggs. usually 12 to 14 eggs. if i sold some of my birds regularly then i would let the eggs hatch. but i only have so much room and doves live a long time , its easier to just collect the eggs then to figure out what to do with another new bird.
some would say why didnt you just leave. well i was 2000 miles from home with no money. pretty much says it all. so i just waited until the time was right and i could leave. that didnt happen until much later....about 20 years later.
my life experiences have shaped who i am today good or bad. i did they best i could with what i had.