day is finally over and i am home with my tea and my feet up for a bit. i got some of my amazon order today. i ordered 2 books which have some very nice old pictures and i can photocopy for my trading cards. there is no way i will cut up the books. i dont understand how people can do that when there are places to photocopy. the copies look great and you would never know they where copies. also in the order was some die cuts for leaves. so i can add some special touches to cards. i also got 3 trading cards to so and messaged out my thankyous. i have one card to finish and mail out on friday and then i am caught up for mailing. i guess the trading comes in waves. with halloween almost here and xmas around the corner people are probly making xmas cards now.
i got a few chores done and dinner made. i thought i did pretty good since i feel so tired still from the dizzy spell. it always takes alot out of me. i dont know why. there is not a lot known about the ways of fibro. the medical people are still learning about this invisable illness. i am sure if people could see my pain i would be treated alot differently.
what people cant see they dont understand. by the end of the day i cant walk a straight line down the long hallways. i cant walk fast or for a long time. i cant stand very long. i miss all the things i used to be able to do with out pain.
i dont remember a day with out pain any more. i cant remember my life before. i hate that i cant use my good energy at home. i am all used up by the time i get home. i resent it and i am sure brent does too. i am useless most of the time.
i am tired and i am going to bed now...see you all tomorrow.