i wonder if caregiver resentment comes so early in the process. not only do i have my chores to do but now his as well. for example he wants to teach me how to use the snowblower. i would rather pay a kid to shovel the walk and driveway. i will also have to start putting out the garbage and mowing the lawn as well as probly tending the gardens which i am not very good at.
later...just got back in from checking the snow behind the car, the plow went by, but no sander. i shoveled a bit on the stairs and sidewalk and behind the car.
i am so tired. feels like i have been running all day. i made muffins, and got the chicken ready for dinner on thurs. this may be brents last xmas so i wanted to make a nice dinner. so i even started to clear off the table to be able to eat at. i want to put a table cloth on too and use the nice dishes. i need to make a pumpkin pie. that is brents favorite. i have lots of canned pumpkin to use up. i will also do a small pickle tray and maybe a few nibbles. its my day off but he works. i work xmas day , boxing day . i also took the day off for his surgery on the 30th. he needs someone to drive him there and pick him up. i dont think i can stay but will ask anyway. cant hurt to ask.
i did some dishes and there is still more but my back is really hurting today. i know i will be paying for it tomorrow for the shoveling, my shoulder hurts already. will take some asprin before i go to bed.
managed to brush the rabbit for a bit. he is not fond of the brush as it goes deep into his fur. but i got lots out for now. he looks a bit better.
managed to spead a bit of time preparing some backrounds for cards. got one card finished with one of the flowers i have been making. i crocheted a stem and leaf for it as well. i think it turned out pretty good. i am using what i have around the house right now. i also started a snowman card and another butterfly card. i am doing 3 of each. the trades will slow down as xmas gets here and maybe pick up after the new year.
time for a shower and get my uniform ready for tomorrow. i am not sure i should go to work. brent has been so weak all day. i worry when i am not home. i phone when i can but still not the same as being home.
see you all soon.....