its another saturday night on my weekend off and i am home alone. alone in the sense that no other human is here, the animals are still here however.
i tried to keep busy today with small chores around here. i started painting in the kitchen, the window trim. i am painting it blue. i really like it so far. i am thinking of painting the shelves in the pantry the same colour as well. will need more paint.
the depression still weighs heavy on me. i pretend to be ok at work but my heart still breaks for who i miss.
i have been moving things around lately. i moved the bunny cage to the back room, i think he likes it back there as well. i gave the bunny some bunny food i bought at the bulk store. leo then got his nose in the dish thinking he could eat it too....i guess he can try.
i got a couple of blocks prepped for the quilt, will try and get another done tomorrow as well for the week ahead. alot of the ladies come by when they see me working on a block and look to see what i am working on. i am still wondering how my center block will look . other than a house i am not sure what else i will put on it. i was thinking of a very large tree, and then put the house under the tree. see what happens i guess when i get closer to the end.
i find it hard to write these days as i dont seem to have much to say. i try and keep busy, but night time is really hard. i go to bed and i dont sleep well. i guess i am still listening for brent.
work is going ok. i am picking up more hours, i am up to 30 a week. its great for now. the widows pension is coming in as well. that is helping alot. no idea where i will be a year from now , but a year ago i didnt know i was going to be a widow so fast either.
there are so many lost souls , and most are afraid to reach out and ask for company, i am one of them.