its christmas morning and i am up too early. i am still tired and have a very long day ahead of me. i start work at 1. brent is up too trying to figure out all his meds. i think he has 10. i charted it for him, so when he takes something to mark it on the chart. we where lucky to find a pharmacy open last night, christmas eve and all. i thanked the pharmasist for working last night. i am sure she would have rather been home too. i went to bed last night before brent. i didnt even hear him come to bed, but i heard him grunting in pain later. i decided to get up hoping to have a hour of quiet time with my tea. i got my tea but its not so quiet with the whole house up now. and of course now that the table is cleaned off and a new table cloth is on, the cat barfed on it...of course. thats why i give up on keeping the table cleared off.
brent really liked his dinner last night, and he really loved his pie. we ate dinner at the hospital waiting for the dr to let him go home. i will have make him up a plate before i go to work. i have to feed everyone and clean litter boxes to. the last place i want to be is at work. i am needed here to take care of brent. and on top of all that there is a snow storm going on. i hate winter. its the most dangerous time of year. i found some juice and broth for brent to start his cleanse tomorrow. he wont be eating for 3 days. he is going to be some cranky. i really dont want to be around him because he will be so miserable. i will have to get more juice and broth tomorrow when the stores are open again.
i am not even sure i will have client this afternoon as no one as cancelled. i dont know if they will be even in the building or out someplace. i will come home and check on brent at dinner as i will have about 1.5 hours and then go back to work. i am hoping the snow will stop soon. i still have garbage to put out later too.
home now. and i have alot of snow to shovel tomorrow after work. its been snowing off and on all day. just one more thing i have to do. just add it to the list.
i was thinking of all the xmas stuff we have i have bins of it. and i may never use it again. brent love to decorate the tree. i would put the ornaments out and he spent hours getting it just right. he was always so proud of the tree. i would decorate the other areas of the house. i love putting all the colour out and seeing how pretty it all looks. sadly now it just sits in the basement for yet another year.
i cried at work thinking this may be brents last xmas and i had to spend it fucking working. some days i really hate my job. i hate the office and i hate the people i have to deal with. some days i want to die too.
i am going to close here for now and go to bed.... i am very tired