its sunday. need i say more. sundays have never been the greatest day for me. my ex and i used to fight alot on sundays. hence why i dont like them now.

laundry is out and dishes are done except for a pot. and second load in washer. waiting for that to finish then head out to the garden. not feeling the greatest but has to be done. dont want to waste the plants. there are so few around to buy right now.

brent is making dinner. with the meat we bought on the farm stand tour. smelling good so far.

got all the vegetable plants in the garden. got the herbs planted in the pots. with brents help i got the second garden bed weeded and planted. dont thing i could have done it on my own. i am not strong enough any more. which makes me wonder if i would even be strong enough to do my job.

i think being outside has been good for my mental health. i am not inside worried about things i cant control right now. and thinking about things that make me so sad. right now the sad days are more than the happy ones. and that worries me .......i want to feel happy but so much has happened in the last year to make me sad that i find it hard to think positive. small steps, small victories.....