so its my day off. tomorrow starts my 6 day stretch. not sure how i will be on monday being as i will be extremely sleep deprived. i have to try and phone the dr again today. and brent is waiting for his dr to call back, he needs to go in and have a stent put in near his kidney and a biopsy on lymph nodes near his kidney. he is still in alot of pain so there for sleeping alot. wish i could sleep as much as he does. i would never get anything done. we wont know anything about what is going on with him probably until after xmas. i will probably be taking time to drive him around to appts and such. see what happens.
i have been waiting for the office to grant me an appt to discuss my split shifts coming up on the weekend. when i went in and talked to someone and explained about not getting enough sleep her eyes glazed over, and i dont think she gave a shit. i also explained that i cant do my job if i am so tired. all she said was send an email to supervisor. so i wait.
i am also waiting to hear from the office on what the rules are for my lunch at the retirement home. my lunch is at the same time as the residents. so i have been snacking or having a drink of water in the lounge. seems i am not supposed to do that. but the person who said i am not supposed to do that did not offer me any other place to eat. and i am not eating in the car this time of year. no dam way. so the manager sent the information to the office and now i have to wait for the office to send it to me. its like ffs just tell me so i know what the hell i am supposed to do. i asked the office for the info and got silence. typical.
today is chores and dinner. no idea what to make. i am tired of cooking all the time. ok i am tired of cooking. i am tired of trying to making something everyday. the endless days of cooking stretch out ahead of me like they will never end. day after day after day of cooking and dishes. some days i am not hungry and just want to go to bed. but i stay up and cook and hope i dont burn the house down. or at least burn dinner because i forget and get doing something else.
will try and finish this post today as i will be in and out all day.
back for a bit. got the aviary done, muffins made,hung up all the handknit socks, and had my shower. i am going to try and finish a couple of cards to get them in the mail. i try and get the cards out quickly...but life happens sometimes. i would rather send something nice then just ok. i got in touch with my drs office and have a phone appt for jan 2021. about a month from now. it almost mid afternoon and i am loosing the desire to do anything. i want to sleep. maybe later i will. i still need to talk to the tax office but i hate dealing with government and they put you on hold forever. i have better things to do with my time than wait on hold to be told its not the right dept. will check the mail after my show. maybe i will get some happy mail today. be back later
later...got 2 happy mail ,...ya me. i got one ready to go out...and i tried to draw a chicken....looks ok....but not what i was seeing in my minds eye. i cant draw very well....i love my carbon paper...i trace things alot. i made dinner and rice pudding. and did some dishes. i still have to put the muffins away and the extra rice. i made extra so i can make more rice pudding later on in the week.
seems just when i am getting in the groove of creating i have to make dinner, lunch or what ever. then i come back some hours later and the groove is gone. nothing i can do right now. i am thinking of taking over the dining table as my desk. i am getting really frustrated working on a tray table. my supplies are everywhere and i cant find half of what i want.
i am really trying to not scream at brent for taking over my desk. he does not think he will be working back in the office ever again. i wish i could work from home. this business of driving around in the winter in the dark creates huge anxiety for me. i am afraid of winter driving ever since my eye crapped out last winter. i dont like driving much now. i dont have to go far to work but its the idea of wondering around in the dark. my eyes still dont work well in the dark. speaking of dark time for bed...see you all tomorrow...