so now the waiting has begun...for test results and healing. the dr says maybe a week for results. and for brent to heal from his biopsy, longer if he does not stay in bed. he slept most of yesterday when we got home. so i have a feeling he was up most of the night. i crashed when i finally got to bed. i slept a good 8 hours i was so tired. i managed to sleep in a bit this morning.
i have lots to do today. i have to go to the bank as its end of the month. i need to pick up meds. and a few things at the grocery store. he has been eating alot of eggs so i need more of those, and cat food etc.
i have been trying to keep sane by doing some art when i can. i have made a few new cards and hope to have some pictures of them done soon. thats the hard part for me. i am not good at pictures so i get brent to do it. maybe i will give him something to do later , take the pictures for me.
much later....i got the banking done and went to get my meds. i almost didnt come home right away...i just wanted some peace and quiet, alone time without someone wanting something. i made him lunch and dinner. he never knows what he wants so from now on i will just make him something and he can eat it or not. i am tired of cooking all night. i am just plain tired.
he keeps saying how sorry he is for being such a pain in the ass, but why dont you try not being such a pain instead. just say yes i will eat what ever you bring me. yes i will take a cup of tea, yes i will take what ever and stop complaining ffs. i certainly never got waited on hand and foot when i was blind. i had to fed for myself wheather i liked it or not. i had to learn how.
i hurt all over and i can only hope i get a good sleep tonight because i have to be back to work tomorrow. and thats going to be a long day. i will have to make sure he has food before i go and remember to call home when i can. i am trying really really hard to not get angry at this man child but its best if i just walk away sometimes.
yesterday was my oldest sons birthday. he turned 36. i sent him a message on FB and wished him a happy birthday. i hope he had a good day. i sure miss talking to my kids and grandkids. i wonder how they are everyday. i wonder if i will hear from them on my birthday.
why is it men just never understand that we get tired too. we get frustrated looking after them all the dam time. trying to make them happy and what ever i do is not right. i can see why women never want to marry again...ever.
i am going to close here tonight as i am tired...and need my pain meds.