well after some moving around i got the laptop on the other side of the dining room table. it just means i cant see the stove now when i am cooking. but such as life. but i will be out of brents way which is what he wanted for when he goes back and forth for coffee etc.
have made a start on the dishes and got the cages done. not sure about laundry yet as it looks like it might rain. and i managed to remember to take something out for dinner.
the thrift store we go to opens up today. i have a few boxes ready to go but i dont think we will be going right away as lots of others will be as well. so will hold off until maybe sat. see how i feel then.
i am doing ok this morning. so far so good. but like anything with fibro it can change in an hour. i hate this disease so much. it has taken so much from me and it will only get worse. i am so tired and in pain all the time but i dont say anything to brent because he will just say dont do anything then. but if i dont do anything it will never get done. i do what i can when i can and if i cant or need help i will have to ask. i am afraid of going for walks alone as i might fall and hurt myself or not be able to get up. i am not the most sports gifted person in the world.
i never liked sports in school and hated running in gym class. i liked biking when i didnt fall off my bike and didnt mind walking now and again. i did alot of walking when i went back to school as i didnt have a car yet. after my course and i had to do the work experience thing i did alot of walking and found myself on my feet most of the day. i thought the pain i was in was due to old age and nothing more. little did i know that the cause was the fibro. so no job at the hospital for me. there is no way i could ever keep up with all the walking.
so now i am wondering what to do with my life. if i can go back to work. if my brain will allow me to work from home. fibro screws with your memory. i get bad brain fog some days. i feel like such a failure in my life. my kids dont talk to me , my siblings dont talk to me and i dont think my mother much liked me.