well i missed my entry yesterday. i was so busy trying to get things done here and with work that by the time i thought of it, it was bed time. even though i was done at lunch time yesterday i had to go and get cat litter , then come home and can the tomato sauce and mushrooms and make dinner, feed the birds, and get ready for work today. i was so tired when i went to bed i passed out. its canning season so i have to get things done.
i think what pissed me off the most was brent had done NOTHING when i was at work. didnt even sweep the floor , which i did. after i started to can the sauce he said oh i can do prep for dinner. i said you should have done that BEFORE i came home not now when i am trying to get things done. so i booted him out of the kitchen and again he said you can leave me a list of things to do. i said to myself i should not have to. sometimes i just cant believe how unobservant men are.
so now i am up at 4am and writing this. i did see however that he did some dishes for me after i went to bed. he works from home so he can and should do more. i did alot of work when i was home. most days all he did was play games on his phone, and forget to put the garbage out.
i have to get ready for work now. will try and write more later.
much later. i am home from work now, time for tea and then onto chores. i asked brent to do a few things for me , and wonder of wonders he did it. so i might have a chance to do some art later. i also got a letter from my penpal yesterday so will try and get that started tonight.
my feet so hurt right now. i am sure the rest of me will hurt later. with all the bending over i have done today i am surprised i am not coughing. so far so good on that one. i took an extra pain pill but has not touched the pain. so i will see how i feel in the morning. i want to get more done tomorrow but if i cant stand for very long it makes it hard. even though i get short times at work to have a bit of a break its still hard when my body does not like walking anymore. i was thinking of getting a step counter to see how far i walk in those halls now.
being back at work has allowed me to get back to knitting socks. i am almost ready to turn the heal the sock i am working on now. i look forward to finishing this pair. i started a pair of baby booties , i am working on these at home. being as i need a written out pattern it stays home. they are so tiny, you forget how small babies are i think, and how small baby things are. they are newborn sized.
i am almost done the trading cards. i put a nice back on them and now i just have to write the info on the back. i want to get them in the mail by friday. then its a waiting game to see what i get back and see if others like my card as well.
some days i feel so incredibly alone. not lonely, just alone. i wish my kids would at least message me and let me know they are ok. i wonder how my grandkids are everyday. i miss them so much. i wonder if they miss me. my life is so incredibly empty with out them. no matter how many birds or cats i have, they will never fill the void my kids have left in me. i am going to close here for now and have my shower and then stretch out in bed. see you all tomorrow.