well it sunday. its never been my favorite day of the week. when i was with my ex we always had a huge fight on sundays. and its mothers day...yippie. last yr i was lucky to get a message on facebook saying happy mothers day. no phone call. they do live in town. they would not be paying for long distance. so i move on. it just hurts that no effort was made. maybe they are still pissed that the bank of mom is still closed. who knows.
i try and hide on sundays. like i will do today. maybe in my office most of the day. but have chores to do like dinner and feeding the birds and i have to make some muffins later to. i am making only 6 at a time so they are fresh for a couple of days.
another cloudy windy day, so no work outside as its cold too . maybe next weekend rake the yard and fill some pots. i need to get some transplanting done. and a big pot from upstairs needs to come now. i think i killed my hybiscus. one of my favorite flowers. oh well. i can buy and plant another. maybe i watered it too much. but i seem to be good with cactus. i have some that are over 10 yrs old now. its a couple of the cactus that need to be put in new pots, some of the aloe vera. i cant do it yet as its too cold in the sun room for the plants to be moved.
its almost noon and no calls from the kids. but no surprise...i have not talked to them in over 6 months. guess they dont miss me. i have tried to message them but no reply. guess i am still in the dog house.
i am reading alot these days as the library is closed due to the pandemic. so i can get any new books on cd. i like listening to books as it lets me do other things and still get to enjoy a book.
i certainly never thought i would be so sick at this point in my life. i will be 59 in a couple of months and wonder what my health will look like at 69. will i need a walker will i need 24 hour care . will i even be alive......