these nights I can't sleep before 3

even when I have no reason
to stay up
no job to avoid
tomorrow
morning

I stay up and stare
at my phone
worry about things far away

won't even be close soon

tell myself I should
read a book I should
have a night routine I should
be asleep at an arbitrary hour
but I don't

do
any
of
that

so now it's 3
A.M.

and all I can hope
is
for deep vivid dreams
when sleep finally comes