Gone with the wind?
Recently I was in California visiting family and friends. I got to see a few friends I hadn’t see in years, one friend it was 20 yrs since we last hugged. I’ve visited California many times but I’m always consumed with family affairs that I don’t have time to see my friends. This time I made sure I made some time for some of the most important people in my life. Even though I hadn’t seen them in such a long time and kept communication at bare minimum, we were still friends. Life just happens. Some of us moved away and have less in common with those friends so the communication fades away. That doesn't mean, we stopped being friends but we are now in different areas in our lives. I’ve always said that a true friend doesn’t necessarily need to be in your life 24/7. A real friend could be days, months or even years of not speaking, but once communication starts, it picks up right where it left off. I had a great time seeing my friends, it reminded me of how much I love them and miss them. We laugh and hugged and it was like being on ecstasy. It got me thinking though about those friends and family we’ve lost along the way. I’m not talking about physically but emotionally. We've had lost friends and family over disagreement, anger, abuse, misunderstanding and broken heart. We’ve all either being a prey or the archer. We’ve all hurt someone who stopped all communication with us purposely. We’ve also have cut people out of lives for being hurtful or toxic. We are all victims. Some people come to our lives for a short period of time. Some of them bring joy and pain. Some of them bring confusion and self awareness. Many bring love and hate. Several friends have hurt me and I've cut them out of my life for good. I do miss some of them because overall our friendship was amazing. I’m also glad some people are out of my life for good. I’ve also hurt my bunch of friends too. Some of them have eventually made their way back thankfully. Some of them I just hurt them too much. They just want me to fuck off. I regret hurting my friends even if I was in the right or wasn’t. A friend is something you cherish and bring you joy and company. A friend is someone who makes you laugh and backs you up. I recently lost a friend and it was mainly my fault. I’m pretty such I lost him/her for good. I regret it because I was very fond of him/her. I wish I could’ve done things differently but I didn’t. I hate losing friends I really wanted forever. It’s like he/she was gone with the wind. Are you gone with the wind?