An INTJ writes about feelings and emotions. Five years ago, that would have been the last thing I wanted to write. As a natural logical thinker, trusting my feelings was never my strong suit. Justifying and rationalizing my emotions came naturally to me, and I must admit that life was much simpler that way.
However, everything has changed in the past few months. I can't pinpoint the exact moment that marked my turning point, but now, I am incredibly in touch with my emotions and my intuitive side. Oh boy, how my world has turned upside down. Ironically, I've come to realize that these intense emotions and feelings I am still learning to embrace have always been a part of me. What has changed is how I respond to them. As I mentioned earlier, I used to rationalize my feelings from a young age. Whenever I experienced something, I easily sought logical explanations for my emotions. The result? I became reserved, never shedding tears while watching movies or when my friends did. I felt joy, but it was always muted. Life was easy to navigate.
I haven't fully decided if this transformation is a positive thing. All I know is that I am changing, and I am fully embracing it. These days, when I feel something, I welcome it without trying to justify it. The effect has been daunting, and it continues to be, due to the vulnerability it brings. Sometimes, I experience these emotions so intensely that it feels like my body can barely contain them. It terrifies me at times, like waves swirling within me, rising, crashing, and threatening to overflow. How does one navigate such overpowering sentiments?