The House She Gooned
Chapter 5 – Porn for Nadia
Claire feeds Nadia porn. Good things are happening.
It starts out small.
Claire sends her links, then images, then videos...just a slow gentle escalation of pornography consumption. Nadia didn't quite know what to do with them. But she didn't question things. Claire knew what she was doing. At first Nadia protested and said things like “I'm at work, I can't open that right now.” Claire would respond “So? You are in a cubicle, no one will see.” Over time, Nadia learned how to carefully scroll porn at work. She accepted Claire's reasoning.
At first, Claire would send her pretty vanilla clips: Pretty girls moaning soft and slow. It's just them, naked, touching themselves, performing for the camera. Then Claire added more over time. Odd insertions, creature cocks, fuck machines. She decided to avoid penis as much as possible. Claire knew that men were a sore spot in Nadia's past so why bring that into porn? As Claire learned Nadia's tastes, she decided to make custom edits to help guide Nadia deeper for porn.
Due to her obsession with creating goon captions and videos, amateur graphic design and video editing are now second nature to her. She decides to look for porn in her collection, trimming clips, adding lo-fi beats and subtle whispered affirmations: “You're wanted. You're seen. Stay here.” She was slowly brainwashing Nadia for the better. Her creations are half porn, half hypnosis. Claire noticed how it was changing her she loved it. She once again figured out how to make porn addiction drive her deeper and further from 'normalcy'. She knew Nadia would change too.
Nadia has now started watching porn every night with her earbuds in. She is really getting into Claire's voice-overs. Her best friend really knows what she's doing and it really shows. Nadia is in awe at all the raw talent Claire has to make all of these edits almost constantly. Her multitasking must be pretty high to make these, while surrounded by porn.. and shes.. touching herself too? Nadia got a little embarrassed and pushed that thought from her mind.
However, one side benefit of all of this is that she doesn't have time to think about being lonely any more. She goes to work and then watches the porn that Claire sends her. Porn is starting to fill the void no other man could fill. Nadia is slowly starting starting to understand Claire's porn addicted lifestyle and she even looks forward to what Claire sends her that day. But Nadia tells herself she's not getting addicted. She's not getting that aroused. She's doing it to help her friend. She's doing it so Claire is seen and understood. That's what she tells herself, at least.
Sometimes, she tries to touch herself but she's too afraid to do it right now. She knows that would be crossing a line. Nadia has been so used to being orgasm denied that she just puts away the pent up feelings of being horny. Having an orgasm to porn would mean something is changing; she wasn't quite ready for that yet.
But she knows Claire is changing her.
Claire told her to spend all her free time watching porn. Now it's her routine. Claire hopes she will eventually start touching herself. That is when everything will unlock. She knows Nadia must be getting horny even though she's not touching...yet. The possibility of making her best friend into a goonette drives Claire like a woman possessed. She makes constant edits and affirmations and audio loops and then goons to her creations...feeding her very essence of her porn addiction into ever curate pixel she gives Nadia.
Nadia often falls asleep hearing the moans from Claire's porn edits and in the midst of the chorus of depravity, she hears Claire's voice — whispering to her through a warm spiral of pleasure and comfort. She is slowly accepting the fact loves how sexually liberated the women are on her screen. Claire really has good taste when it comes to porn. She's really starting to enjoy watching solo female masturbation. Its just the admiration of these women..how brave they are to show everything with their face showing.. performing an amazing show for the camera. Nadia starts to notice wetness in her panties, but she is still in denial that she's might be getting addicted to porn.
Meanwhile, Claire sits cross-legged on her mattress, screens flickering all around. She often edits until dawn, especially on weekends where she can fuck herself silly 'testing' her edits on herself to help Nadia. She tells herself it's for Nadia — to help her relax, to help her find herself. But it's also for her. Claire feels herself getting deeper. She can reminisce on the good days when she learned she was pornosexual.
Now she gets to guide Nadia the right way from the beginning. Nadia wont have to deal with the lackluster porn, the negative comments, and the poor excuses of 'men' that show up in dms. Those by far are the worst vibe killers. They don't give a shit about the gooning culture and gooning lifestyle.
They just barge in and demand things and never make any effort to complete their profile or do anything meaningful other than waste time and take up space.
Nadia doesn't need to deal with that at all. She just needs to watch the porn that Claire is creating and curating for her. She already knows porn is changing Nadia and she hopes she can get Nadia fully addicted to porn.
Claire's secret truth is this: she never stopped wanting humans. She just gave up on them wanting her. So instead, she isolates, masturbates, and elevates herself above things that didn't serve her or complete her. Claire is open and accepting. Humans that don't know the beauty of extreme porn addiction are harsh and judgmental and cruel.
She has had two divorces in life. One was her marriage and the other was a divorce from this dimension. She just exists in their world to make their money so she can keep her Gooncave. But she doesn't want any other part of it. She has made her goonette cave now — she is one with porn. But who would really want that? Who would crawl in her gooncave and stay? She knows this is a solitary path but Porn is her best friend now.. well, Nadia is too...but Porn truly loves her.
But there is hope. Nadia... Nadia could. Nadia could understand. If she could just lean in, just slip past the shame and let the screen swallow her too — maybe they'd both never be alone again.
One night Nadia texts out the blue: “Your voice is so nice in those porn edits you make. I almost feel like you're here. I can't thank you enough. You are doing so much to help me understand your world. I have been watching porn every night for weeks now just like you asked. I'm slowly starting to understand why you like doing this. “
Claire replies: “Maybe I am right there with you. Every moment you spend with porn will bring us closer than we ever have been before.”
That night, Nadia lies back on her couch, phone propped on her chest. She plays another clip — Claire's soft edit, moans layered with whispers: “You're safe. You're wanted. Stay.”
Nadia closes her eyes. Not because she is sleepy. She just feels so at peace. The sexual imagery is still intense though. But she's trying to enjoy.. trying to.. unlock that spark with Porn.
Nadia has never been seen like this. She honestly never felt like anyone really understood her. She's never let anyone crawl this deep into her private life. She never thought she would talk to her best friend about porn.. or watch women pleasure themselves every night.. but Claire did this.. Claire is working so hard to really understand and help Nadia.
Nadia though to herself, “If I just have to watch porn to get attention, then so be it. So what if its my best friend and not a man? I know Claire really cares and it shows in her hard work to make porn safe for me.”
Over time, Nadia had confessed to Claire what she likes to see and Claire listened. Claire decided to slowly and quietly manipulate Nadia's mind. Years of gooning and online chats have perfected Clare's ability to 'goonfluence' her best friend.
For example, she will never tell Nadia she planted the phrases like this in the videos:
“You will keep watching.”
“You will touch yourself all the time.”
“This is normal”
If you listen closely you will hear them but they are buried perfectly among the moans of Porn.
Some of the voices belong to Claire, other times, they are voices from bots she found on the web.
Either way, she knows they will change Nadia for the better.
Claire also has started to whisper to herself as she edits the next loop:
'If I can't be loved, I can at least be needed.'
'If I can't be touched, I can at least be inside her mind.'
'If I can't have her, I'll make her like me.'
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