a person trying to figure out their relationship with alcohol and trying to replace it with snacks for the soul

3 weeks
I pulled up the blog to write and I just went blank. things are good. i am in the period where i am searching for replacements for the dopamine hits i got from alcohol (shopping, chocolates). i may be missing the spikes in dopamine from the long awaited every week – weekend. however, I am not missing the lows that come along with alcohol withdrawal.

i was tempted to have a glass of wine with a friend this weekend and I realized – i worry more about it before more than when i get to the situation where I am physically drinking. once i get there, its not a big deal to order the NA option.

I think I just worry about what the person thinks more than believing in myself that its not that hard to abstain. Because really – im only abstaining from a possible disastrous night and ruined next 3 days.